An observation on the human condition..

I should be really excited today but I’ve got to start packing and I seem to be putting it off.  I’ve had a little trouble getting used to my “in-ear monitors” at rehearsal lately as I don’t use them regularly and this adds a bit of frustration to learning slightly new “symphony accompanied” versions of the songs I already know so well.  I  shouldn’t let it get to me but I don’t use them regularly enough and that’s the problem.  If you are too lazy to use them during rehearsal then you likely won’t use them during performance it seems.  The upcoming show is at the Morton H Myerson Symphony Center in Dallas and I really AM looking forward to it.  It may be the biggest audience to date… at least for my Stevie Nicks Tribute.  I’m leaving for rehearsal in Vegas Saturday morning… two days from now… and I still have a few Costume modifications to attend to as well!  I should be so very motivated!  Seems like I go through some kind of swings in my levels of motivation… and many times, the better things are for me the less motivated I am.  Any of you have trouble with that?  The human condition seems to be such that whenever we are giving something without having to work for it, we don’t value it much.  There are groups in our society where governments give out assistance to people and it never seems to give these people a leg up.  They remain in their squalor and we think, “man, if I could get that type of assistance I’d do this and that with it… WOW!”.  I am recently married and my new husband has found that at his business if he buys new equipment for his employees his success in keeping this new equipment in good condition doing the job it was intended for is a lot less successful than if he buys a well used piece of equipment and then gets his maintenance crew to dig in and refurbish it from top to bottom and repaint it and everything, often spending almost as much money as just buying it new in the first place.  The reason is that now he has 4-6 maintenance men, who are proud of what they’ve built, helping to teach the operators how to use it correctly and chastising operators who scratch the new paint etc.  It’s a little disheartening to think how natural it is to be ungrateful.  I am always thinking about this part of me and I know I am not exempt… so with that bit of self examination, I’m off to go pack and work on my costume changes….

Cheers everyone!